Christine McGuinness says Paddy and kids have never met her heroin addict dad

Paddy McGuinness has never met her dad Johnny due to his battle with addiction

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Christine McGuinness has revealed how husband Paddy and their children have never met her heroin addict dad.

The TV star shares heartbreaking details of how her dad, Johnny, is one of the "longest living heroin addicts in the country" and even let her down on her wedding day.

Writing in her new book A Beautiful Nightmare, Christine shares what her life was like growing up in a Merseyside council estate with her hardworking mum and dad who was riddled with addiction.

"He's missed out on so much – parents' evenings, first dates – all the things you want your dad there for. And really what upsets me is he's lost out on having a relationship with my family too," she penned.

Christine McGuinness with her dad on what she called 'a good day'
(Image: Christine McGuinness / A Beautiful Nightmare)

Christine says Paddy has never met her dad
(Image: WireImage)

"My husband hasn't met him and our children haven't either. Both of Patrick's parents have passed away, so the children only have my mum as a grandparent. I must admit in the past, I've felt guilty that my dad's still around but has nothing to do with us.

"It's a real shame because he could have lived a brilliant life. He should have been the best grandad and dad on earth, but the drugs won over his flesh and blood every time."

She explained that her children, twins Penelope and Leo, seven and Felicity, four, are unaware that they have a grandad that they've not met, but she insists that they've never asked "where mummy's dad is".

"As much as I feel ok with my dad, and to accept him for who he is, I'm not comfortable with the thought of introducing my innocent children to a heroin addict," she admitted.

"I never know what his behaviour is going to be like either. Sometimes he's fine and other times he's quite erratic."

The mum-of-three said: "He knows all this and we've spoken about it, but it's still a massive loss for him and my children. They won't get to the chance to meet him or have a relationship with their grandad."

"He's one of the longest living heroin addicts registered in the country and now he's prolific around Blackpool. I honestly don't know how he's kept going. He's been in and out of hospital so many times."

Christine and Paddy
(Image: Gareth Cattermole/Getty Images)

Christine opens up about her family life and autism diagnosis in her autobiography, A Beautiful Nightmare
(Image: Christine McGuinness / A Beautiful Nightmare)

Tragically, Johnny was due to walk Christine down the aisle on her wedding day in June 2011, but he let her down at the last minute.

"Just as I was putting on my dress, I got a call from my auntie who told me he wasn't coming.

"Although my dad and I weren't close, I wanted him to be there. It was gutting and made worse by the fact I had to walk down the aisle on my own. That's a day I'll never get back," she said.

The Real Housewives of Cheshire star said that being disappointed by her dad was a common theme throughout her life after her parents split when she was a youngster.

"When I was around one, Mum found out my dad was a heroin addict. My mum longed for the relationship to work, but when I crawled over one of his needles as a toddler, she knew it was over."

Christine, who was recently diagnosed with autism, grew up on a council estate in Merseyside. She and her family now joke that they were "dragged up".

The 33-year-old said that the split meant that she didn't see much of her dad when she was a child but he became a part of her life again as she got a bit older.

Christine, Paddy and the kids on holiday
(Image: Christine McGuinness)

Christine said she was blissfully unaware of her dad's addiction woes until she was eight-years-old.

A man approached her in ASDA and said: "You're Johnny's daughter, aren't you?"

When a young Christine replied, he said: "Oh, your dad's a druggy."

"And that was the first time I'd heard about it. I didn't understand what he meant. Did he sell drugs? I thought. What does he mean?" She said.

Looking back, she said: "As a teenager, I struggled with his addiction and lack of interest in my life. I blamed myself. Was it my fault? Was having two children too much for him to cope with?"

"But as I've gotten older, I've realised it wasn't as simple a choice for him. Addiction is an illness and I don't believe he'll ever get better."

She explained how her grandparents have forked out for him to go to get help from the best rehab centres and bought him a flat, but nothing has worked so far.

Her dad's battles have resulted in her never trying any herself, adding: "I've got no hate towards him, and if it's taught me one thing in life it's to never have anything to do with drugs.

"My dad and I are on good terms now, and don't get me wrong, I love him dearly. But I don't respect him."

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